In Your Time 

the fear grows inside
of being left alone
not an engulfing fear
but a faint trickle
a "what if..." 

                                 life is so cruel
                              one small event -
                              a need for space
                              may lead to a void

one cannot go back
on events past
but must look to the future
i cannot force you
but what if... 

                                 i see a vision
                              is it from God?
                              it seems heavenly
                                 what if...

my life alone with God?
my vocation is a lonely one
and a partner?
i cannot imagine anyone
else but... 

                           handing this dribbling tap
                              over to God is fine
                        but it does not stop the bruise 

the pain is gone - i no longer feel
but the marks show - from my heart 

i want again
what we've had
from where we are
in your time
but what if...
... if not. 

gareth j m saunders
http://www.garethjmsaunders.co.uk
(c) 16 August 1990